09 Oct 08 thought

i'm suddenly feeling so bad. the life is not what i expected since i was back, i'm worried that i have been changed by the life here, and have to bare from it, that's so bad. i suddenly realized something i did anticipate that is going to close the door to me even the window is closing too. it's so bad.

i think it's time to think how to get rid of it, or how to plan the rest of my life, i really need do that.